Bad day today. I'm having a real hard time getting around the fact that Beth is suffering from the effects of the cancer. No brave face or denial needed. She's always really tired, has phantom pains, and can barely eat. It's not like she's actively dying, but she's not feeling well. It hurts. 

My barriers are not very strong today, and I'm really sad. You don't know what you've got 'till it's gone, or in this case, slowly going.