Things are pretty grim. Beth has been off the chemo for almost three weeks now, and there is not a lot of noticeable improvement, to either her health and strength or her mental state. We got a clean scan a week and a half ago, but the visit with the oncologist just almost condemned her to about 6 more months of chemo. I don't think she can do it. She has lost so much weight, and is incredibly weak even after the time off from the previous chemo regime.
On top of that, she's an emotional wreck. A lot of that is due to the amount of meds she's taking. Oxy for the pain, adavan for the anxiety, and vodka because she still really likes to drink. Combine all of those, and she's pretty unstable, both physically and emotionally.
This is hard. Harder for her, but it's wearing me down. I love her so much, and she's really suffering.
